Hello beautiful Woman of God. I hope you had a week as amazing as you are ! We serve an awesome God, don’t we? He blesses us even in the middle of difficult circumstances. I know that I count my blessings every day and have learned not to take anything for granted in this season.
I have been thinking a lot lately about my past and how it has shaped me to be the woman I am today. I was raised by a single mom. My dad died when I was young and my mom went from a stay at home mother to a full- time sole income provider. It was an adjustment for everyone.
It was the 80’s (yes I know my avatar does not look like a middle- aged woman :P), and I was termed what was called “a latch- key kid.” In other words, I was left alone (with my younger brother) after school and at lunch time during the week to fend for myself. It was quite a common thing back in the day and I did pretty well all things considered. I learned independence and how to contribute to the household. It is just quite a bit different than the standards of today (just like it surprises me when my mom talks about riding her bicycle around the neighborhood at the age of 5 and being gone all day). Yet, I am sure there were lasting effects.
I do know that all my life I felt something was missing. I was not raised in the church. I was a seeker. I searched the world for a place to belong, to feel accepted, to feel at home. I got into new age religion, alternative medicine, and even joined a Zen Buddhist sangha (their version of church). I tried out almost everything the world offered. I betrayed my body and betrayed my soul. And, (as the song says) I still never found what I was looking for.
I was at rock bottom when I came to Christ. I will spare you all the extraneous details but I was at the end of myself. Nothing I knew worked any more. I had nothing left to lose (almost literally). I gave everything over. There was nowhere else to go but up.
I was in the middle of a storm, in a very hostile environment that tested my resolve and my commitment to change my life. Yet, God lead and I followed. He sent me strong women of faith as mentors and role models. One of them gave me five, FIVE!, pages of scriptures to read about my Identity in Christ. My task was to read each scripture, underline it in my bible, and then pick one scripture a week to meditate on and journal about.
I found out that I am NOT my past. I am NOT my sin. I am NOT any crime or indiscretion committed by me or against me. I have a new identity.
That was so amazing to me. I remember thinking, “Wow! God is my Father. My earthly father passed away but I am not an orphan.” Not only that but God is not a deadbeat Dad. He cares about who I am and what I do (He cares about who you are and what you do.) He knows the struggles I have faced He knows the struggles you have faced too). In fact, it says in scripture:
That did not make sense to me. I thought- “A door? What is the door?” I soon found out the door is a WHO not a What. Christ is the door:
The pasture is all the goodness that our Father offers us as his children. It is not only the physical food and drink he provides but also spiritual food (“Bread of Life”, and “Living Water”). Salvation is not just about going to heaven. The good news of the gospel is that Christ came to set us free. Not just free from sin and death (which in itself is an amazing gift). But, free from illness, free from fear, obligation and guilt (the new FOG in the Kingdom is the Favor of God), free from lack, and free from the past.
I started off this post talking about how the past shaped me into who I am. All of my experiences did impact me. I found out what did not work. I found out what I did not want in my life. Those were very hard- won lessons. I also found out that “the key is not in the world.” Nothing I could do, in my own power, could open the door. It is a free gift from God. Once you accept Jesus into your heart, the door is open. Not only that, you receive the keys to the Kingdom.
But, you don’t have to carry the keys around your neck. You don’t have to let yourself in. You are not left to fend for yourself. You are also not just a guest passing through. You belong. You are seen, heard, and understood. You do not need to beg, or plead, or barely scrape by. You have an identity in Christ and the authority of the believer. Your father is royalty.
So, if your dad (our dad) is the King then that means we are no longer “latchkey kids.” Let’s put on our crowns and sit at the table. The feast is ready!
Keep Bloomin’ in HIM!
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